# 002

someday, when i have kids, i will read them all the night-time stories i loved. i will read them disney. because even thought, it gives a child a warped image of love.. it's still a great part of childhood. to hear those stories. to dream of that. but i will also teach my children independence. and that sometimes the world and the people in it dissapoint you. i will teach them to be nice, and friendly but also tough. they'll have courage that i never did. or do. and i will teach them, that if they need me, even for the smallest thing, i will be there for them.

today sucked. like astronomically. i slipped last wednesday and my foot hurts still. my face hurts a lot from when i hit it on the floor. my hand still has a cut and my thigh still hurts so badly that i can't sleep on that side. and i have a headache and feel like crying a lot and i bought my favourite food and don't even want to cook it. and that sucks. because i need to eat so i can take my painmeds, but i can't really take all of my meds because one puts me to sleep for hours on end and that is something i can't have tomorrow.

so i'll sleep in pain.

i want to write about a thing but i can't because i don't know what's going on.