# 001

there was a post here. about tarot-readings. but i deleted it. actually i replaced it. because i decided i don't want to be that girl. it wasn't a blog i wanted to write. so..

i am a woman. from finland. i'm 22, i have a chihuahua. i live alone. i have a step-sister with whom i share a mom. and i have a dad. i have long brown hair and green-brown eyes. i have a horrible laugh and i'm a nerd. i'm a romantic and cynical. i want to believe that i can find someone to love who loves me but at the same time, i don't believe that happening. not for me.

i have friends but not that many, mostly guys. i've lived in this city for 17 years i think and the whole time i've hated it. i'm scared of thunder. and bugs. ants especially.

i hate compliments laced with sexual innuendo. but that's pretty much all i get. because apparently, i'm beautiful. i attract idiots and players and jerks. even thought i really want to find that cute, sweet, nice shy guy who may think they don't have a shot with me. who sees the way i look but sees more than that.

i love dancing. i've danced my whole life. i smoke too. a bad habit, no lectures needed. i'm also a student. i read. i prefer tv shows over movies. i prefer marvel over dc comics. superman is awesome and all, but tony stark is just more me. i've seen all three iron man movies and the avengers movie and can't wait to see the second. i like the big bang theory. so basically i'm really nerdy.

i don't have a car. or a drivers license. i have a bicycle older than me that i got 10 years ago as a heritage when my grandmother died. someone vandalized it and it is currently unbikeable.

i hate people who only talk to me because of my looks.

i love ray william johnson and jenna marbles. sometimes i call my dog mrs. marbles. even thought my dog is so gay it's not even funny. i drink a lot of coffee. i wear a lot of black. like a lot. i want to change a lot of things about myself but can't.

and, as the last thing i write on this.. i have a medium-size stuffed hello kitty that i got from my friend. and i love it.