# 024

ohmygod, i have not written here for sooo long. i am so sorry! i didn't even realize it until i was sitting on my computer and just going "i wonder if i wrote about this, i wonder if i wrote about that" and came to check.. and realized that i have not written about ANYTHING.

you guys didn't even know i moved! and that happened before the last post of last year.. i'm a bad blogger, bad bad blogger. so yeah, i moved last year, so i've lived in my new apartment for.. a bit over 1,5 years now.. it's nice and big but my neighbors have slowly driven me insane since i am not one to enjoy listening to heavy bassed(?) music at 4 am.. or smelling weed all the time because it comes through the airvents.

what else.. oh, i started coloring my hair after the last post. first i went lighter but it was more yellow then blonde no matter what i did and my hair was in such a bad condition. soo then i went dark, almost black and kept that up for a few months. and then on march i thought "i cannot keep spending this much money on my hair every two months, it's insane!" so i bleached my hair to a lovely dark orange shade(it actually looked kinda nice in pictures that i took in the dark) and then put 5.0 on that and was at my natural color and started to grow it out. now i've got ends that are just a bit lighter than my roots but i don't even care 'cause it looks nice. i'm babbling, sorry.

i also got an expansion pack for sims, the get to work thing. it's a bit awesome, but also a bit annoying. like i can't own a store and make money on it without having to be there. but i really like the doctor-career. though everyone just keeps walking through walls and the only actual doctor in there keeps freaking out at eeverything, it's so funny.

also, an update to my phone situation.. i had galaxy note 2, it broke so on easter 2015 i went out and bought galaxy S3... and that broke spring of 2016.. bought myself another iphone 4s.. AND THAT BROKE LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO. so now i'm phoneless. which sucks a little, but with no social life on my phone it doesn't really affect me all that much but still a bit of a problem.

i'm going to stop writing now, even thought there is a lot more to say, because i feel like this is going to take an hour to read as it is.. thank you so much for reading, leave a comment and.. yeah. i hope you have a lovely rest of the year!

# 010

sorry for the looong delay in writing, life has been totally crazy. i got sick a couple of weeks after i started an internship and i was sick for a few weeks and then i moved to a bigger place and then school started and i didn't have any time to write. all my free time went to me trying to have a social life. but, i am now, back and ready to.. whatever.

so, i'm trying to remember what all has happened. i cut my hair. bangs.. and i love them. i was terrified to go to the salon because usually my hair gets ruined and i end up hating it and growing it out but now, by some miracle, my hairdresser really listened and asked questions and understood and i came out with perfect bangs. then they overgrew and i cut them again, this time a bit shorter and now, they have, again, overgrown. i'm just trying to figure out a good time to visit the salon again.

i was in a relationship. lasted for like two weeks. i am single again, happily so. i realized that people who i thought were my friends actually aren't and i surprisingly feel fine with it. i've been home a lot lately, but i don't mind, i feel like i'm finding myself again. i do still go out on the weekends but life has calmed down a lot. i'm more focused at school too.

to be honest, i kinda went in to shock finding out that someone special to me died this summer.. i'm still not completely over it, and never will be, but life goes on and i will cherish everything about them forever, they will always be in my heart.

oh, and i've started to wear more skirts and dresses. i know, shocking. i used to hate them with a fiery passion, now i strongly dislike wearing anything that can cut off my bloodflow. thought since this is finland, i do still wear jeans and stuff, but i avoid it if possible. also, after i trampled my leg, i've worn heels a lot more and my feet can actually take it now, really couldn't before. they started to hurt like 5 minutes after putting heels on. i can't wear heels at school and it is kindof fround upon there, but on my freetime, going out and stuff, i opt for heels. not always but sometimes.

well, i still have a LOT more to say but i feel like this is getting to be too long as it is so stay tuned...

# 008

midnight ramblings. world i love you. and hate too.  i've been so bored today, i could think of nothing to do so i just did my hair like 2 minutes ago, i did some schoolstuff, semi-decorated my studyspace which doesn't really have anything changed, it's a bit cleaner and now it has a purpleish wall because i put a curtain up but really, this is not a nice space. some shelves would be nice or something. i don't know.

i realized that i keep liking men who are taken or not available to me. and i also realized why. no chance of getting them, no chance of getting my heart ripped to pieces and eaten by wolves. or something. but it sucks because i actually do want a relationship. with someone who likes me for me. and doesn't get down on me for smoking. or my coffee-habit. or being a nerd.

maybe i should go play something. or do something other than write, sitting here makes me kindof uncomfortable for some reason. and my stupid laptop keyboard doesn't like me today -enter saddest face ever here-. so much for being a nerd i guess.

also, i hate my hair.

bye!